the wind crashed hard around your absence turning in all you built trading it for a weakness the bridges you burn the walls did you forget so easily the world me made out of promises and hope now nothing had it just been a plot to keep your hands buried in while you waited for roses to grow outside the wreckage of your restless apathy the time and tones of wire rails and string while we hid from the sun and wandered mistakenly towards glowing nights planting seeds of time in the twilight of misery expecting to grow healing in the light of love but now all that grows here is the shadow of your vacancy a sorrow a shame a mirror maddening but i loved the way you lived through your hands but you closed them up as you pushed away into a dark sea the harder you row the deeper you sink into obscurity and i'm starting to forget the sound of your laugh the day you disappeared from reach was when you fell in love with the sound of your own madness the self-sustained blow of silence all the hours could be yours in the halls built by caring hearts the ones you used up burned up to keep warm the little bit left of you you flicker and burn away like a funeral pyre on christmas when all things should be safe and close wrapped up in arms now all i see is you at odds with your own memory choosing secrecy and want over a simple nature of gentle days as the vines and weeds you've sown strangle out your voice out of memory out of sight out of mind out of the home we could have made had you stayed you had you stayed had you how could you however you still have me

i want to wake in your forest under your dancing leaves with dreams alive we can climb you are everything to me golden nectar the sun reflecting off your face blinding me it's your smile lines i need burgundy across your shoulder your neck twisted tight feeding hungry hearts you are my only dream cold glimmer the stars in shambles kneeling before us our kin kissing feet you know you know you said under the red light a flower was listening in the corner and i wake from the last dream the lines are blurred what did i see i miss this the certainty does it exist are we ever to be